It's been a very long time since I last posted well anything. It feels like forever. A lifetime ago...it's been a very long time since I've had inspiration or felt confident in what I scribbled onto paper. I feel disconnected. I can't reconcile the feelings that I have with what I am supposed to be...an adult. An adult shouldn't feel this way shouldn't concern herself with such things. Problem is every time I write or take a photo or draw something it all comes across the same as it did a decade ago. Everything around me has changed...but everything inside me has stayed the same. I can't identify anymore with my peers...I used to feel a kinship with others. Even though the path was a fallen one others walked it too. We moved in the same directions...now .....now I'm still here but my peers are no longer with me. It's not that I don't want to be where they are, I do very much....but that's just not how it's turned out for me. I'm stuck...trapped...forever trying to reach the next step...the next stage...but never quite succeeding.